Wonderful catch up with my mental health nurse.
She’s good, but we’re new to each other and I’m just used to a more assertive approach. I’m very grateful though, I technically come under the worst ever NHS mental health service (true fact) & aside from 1 individual, I have never ever received bad care.
But what might’ve caused my BPD came up in discussion.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Never ask why.
Never ever ask why.
Researchers believe BPD or EUPD is caused by stressful or traumatic life events & genetic factors. There’s nothing much to do with mental health in my family history, though I have a very small family, & I’ve never had, what I deem, a stressful or traumatic event. I’ve never was upset or unsupported, there never were any family difficulties or any abuse or neglect.
I go round & round with every new psych/RMN/Care worker about what could’ve set if off as it were but I always come up with zilch. And it’s hard work wanting to have a reason, something to pin it on, something to blame but coming up empty. It tiring & makes me very blameful of myself.
Especially with BPD when you are often accused of being an attention seeker or hypochondriac, it’s a very easy rabbit hole of guilt to fall into.
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